Breakdown

Pretending not too know?


I'm unhappy as I sit here and write this blog. I don't know what to write about as I have no focus to discuss anything somewhat personal to myself. The only person able to trust in life, is yourself, and even then and sometimes you are bound to break that trust as friendship sounds sweet. Every rose has its thorn, poison had it right.


But november rain holds the answers to it all and to me, is the key to working through my indefinate problems. I can handle being ignored, but I cannot handle moods and sulking very well. It's an attention seeking emotion, and if you get pulled into the sob and give them the pathetic sympathy they want, they win. You've lost the fight. Others will take it as caring and you want to help the one hurt, but I haven't ever seen it this way. I'd really like to know why though. But it's the same with myself, I neither like attention drawn to myself or have others pity me. I don't need to be pittied, EVER!

F.I.N.E
F - fucked up
I - Insecure
N - Neurotic
E - Emotional


Always remember this, and whenever somebody gives you the answer of fine, this is what they really mean.